Pretty much nothing about today has gone like I thought it needed to. And there have been more than a few tears in the midst of it. Most everything about today has just been hard, and the hardest part is allowing myself to admit that. I suppose there will be more hard birthdays, which I hope will teach me to appreciate the good birthdays when they come. We did end today with strawberry ice cream (shakes) and sparklers. Which really were the favorite parts of her birthday anyway.